This makes me really sad for you. I hope it isn't really that miserable for you all.

I struggle with different things, but I'm so grateful that I have been able to talk to a counselor for a long time now (she's helped me so much with Kayleigh issues and my own issues) because I don't know where I'd be if I didn't have her. My parents aren't alive and I have no other family here so it's hard. I have a few friends, but not a lot and the ones I have I don't really want to tell too much to. One knows what is going on and she's very supportive of both of us. She knows I don't bash Ed and knows I just want to figure things out.

One of the main things that makes me want to do my best to make it work is Kayleigh. I want her to have both of us in her life full time, but I also want her to have us there lovingly and that's where we need to be. I also do not want another woman in her life trying to bring her up. I've seen it happen to so many people and it's a nightmare on the kids.

I'll let you know when I get the book how it is. And yes I love the Ipad it's so cool. Everyone in my house steals it to use.

That is cool about Milo and his Itouch. I bet he loves it. I have a feeling that will be Kayleigh's christmas gift this year. She's so into electronics and is a whiz at them it's crazy.