I am so sorry to hear your frustration. I know it is hard.
I had my plans all worked out. I was going to finish nursing school, get
preggo before my last semester ended, then have a baby before I had to quit my job, stay home for a few months, breast feed, THEN find a job in nursing.....
Well, I was in my last couple of week of nursing school, my last part, where I was doingall those clinical hours....AF had not shown in weeks. I was SURE i was
PG. I could feel it. I dont test before i am really late ( I have looooong cycles)
Well, there I am sitting there in my white scrubs. AF came to visit.
I cried the rest of the night. It sucked. dont know what it was, chemical, just nothing. who knows.
So, I decided that I would just kind of kick things around.
Another late cycle, a few months later. I passed my boards, had already accepted my position as a nurse, and resigned from my old job.
went on a quick little vacation. Decided to test and got a
BFP.
so, now i have no benes, no time off, and dont know what the heck I am gonna do.
Many silly regrets, but I have now my beautiful daughter.
My point to this long drawn out babbling post........
everything will happen when it is supposed to happen. It all can't be planned....
While I was
TTC with Elizabeth, people always told me, go ahead~~ make plans~~~ see what happens.
I wish you the best.